I haven't "traditionally" published much of anything before and now this long wait until The Sunset Route releases in July has me d y i n g with anticipation and happy, frantic dread- there should be a word for the fear and anxiety you feel when something might go right- I feel like a sheet of glass that could shatter and I often think abt how dogs can't tell the difference btwn human excitement and human anxiety and maybe there is no difference, esp when yr nearing middle age and yr adrenals are shot. Anyway I'm actually totally fine, just probs had too much caffeine today, my life this winter is very quiet and very good, all the yellow and orange flowers are blooming in my neighborhood and I can't focus on anything and I'm in love with the world and also sad often but in a beautiful way, perhaps that's the best it ever gets. I hope you're finding pleasure or at least the anticipation of pleasure, in your dreams, I can't wait for the collective catharsis that will come after this panny is over
Some humans have wanted for centuries to prove that time has a directional arrow- that the future is unknown, becomes the present, ends, and moves behind us. We've used entropy- the fact that things become more disordered- as an argument in support of this. In 2009, some scientists argued in a paper that the arrow of time can be explained in terms of quantum mechanical entanglement. As a physical system becomes entangled with its surroundings, the paper said, it moves closer to equilibrium. This one-way evolution determines time’s arrow.
In September I had the pleasure of spending a week at the ghost town turned freaky queer artist residency of Cisco, Utah ( @bigtroublelittlecisco ). It was one of the more aesthetically sublime experiences of my life. Eileen and pals have made so much magic from junk and trash on the high desert plain, where the only thing that grows is cheatgrass and the wind blows ceaselessly. And where the light is always perfect. In Cisco I felt as though I was outside of time, or in the future. I was thinking of Cisco today, and that perfect light, and figured I'd post these. Maybe they'll make u feel good the way they make me feel good.🌌
HI Carrot,
Your making great time. Nice corsage.
Fred.
You’re doing great. Looking forward to your future updates and maybe even the book that may come out of this adventure.