The blog-

one year

174,000 words (believe it)

216 posts


Reader! I have squeezed ever single possible ounce of validation, inspiration, motivation, and reassurance out of this blog in the past year, and now it is time to move on. I am tired of publishing things before they are done just for the momentum that having an anonymous audience gives me- I am ready, ready, ready to hold out for bigger and better things. I am growing weary, too, of the idea of blogging itself- the audience is dark, I cannot see who I am performing for, and I’ve come to realize that I wouldn’t want to anyways. So farewell! If I actually know you in real life, this is not, of course, goodbye. But if you are a stranger- as the majority of my readers are- look for me in the bookstore in a couple of years- I’ll be made of paper and glue, and if you take me home I promise, pinky swear and cross my heart, that I will tell you all my secrets.

34 thoughts on “fin.

  1. Having just found I AM NOT AFRAID OF WINTER I, for one, am sorry to see you go. Best of luck with the book and your other adventures.

  2. I second Clare’s comment–but I hope to see your book in the future. Best of luck in all that’s to come.

  3. really.

    i’m proud for the change you are embarking upon and simlutaneously selfishly somewhat sad to be losing you in this realm.

    maybe you can at least guest-write some details for me?

    keep doing what you do, my dear carrot. regardless of what format, just keep rocking it. and i will too.

  4. Everyone’s quitting blogging. It’s ok. I totally understand the move. I wish you as much happiness as possible, and I thank you for so many words.

  5. Thank you for the beauty your words create, thank you for inspiring me and thank you for continuing on into paper and glue I happily await the day I come across the secret joys of your life in print.
    much love and rowdy blessings

  6. You are amazing. I will miss your world and your special view on the journey we share. Keep it up some way. I just think you are amazing and that the world is a better place because you try to make sense of the way the world spins us around and mixes us up. I love your writing style, it places me there beside you and sometimes I feel that I can see the world through your eyes. You make me understand. You make me feel. You have a gift. Thank you for sharing. Email me or post a new blog to allow us to keep up with you. If you write a book I will buy it.

    Love from us all…I will miss your words…Brian

  7. Hey Lady,

    Glad to hear of your ambitions to be published. I hope you’ll keep the blog around for those of us that would like to come back and keep reading.

    Best of Luck on all of your adventures!

  8. Bye Carrot, will miss your words and adventures. Are you really going to do this? Hope you weren’t, but I guess you got to do what you got to do.
    At least keep the existing posts up by not shutting this blog down, and maybe when the book is published let us know..
    Miss you already.


  9. Thank you for your thoughts and the way you express them, thank you for taking the time to share them with the dark Internet, thank you for showing me a few things that I hadn’t seen before. I am truly sorry that you’re not going to be here any more.

    Toi toi toi for the future, everything it entails – friends, strangers, the vagaries of weather, travel, the difficulties in staying put, and the joys and strange aloneness of writing. Glück auf dem Weg!


  10. Till we meet again in another medium – one of paper and glue as you put it. I have enjoyed your words, stories, and thoughts. I will miss them, but look forward to your new adventure. I hope you will let us know when you’re published.


  11. 😥 by far my favourite blog on the net, thanks for what you’ve given me, and best of luck going forward. Please post any updates here so I can keep an eye out. Fare thee well

  12. I have enjoyed your writing, you have such a talent for bringing words to life. I’m looking forward to your books!

    I second the update request!

  13. I’m sorry to hear that you’re giving up this blog. It’s been totally brilliant on some of my darkest days. It bends the world sideways and upsidedownie and reminds me that the way I see it is limited and small. This gives me hope. Your books will give the world hope, Carrot. The little byrd will fly for all the world to see.

    With Love,

  14. I’ve greatly enjoyed living vicariously through you by reading of your fascinating and wonderful adventures. You will be missed immensely.

  15. I understand your sentiments and especially the line, “I am tired of publishing things before they are done just for the momentum that having an anonymous audience gives me- I am ready, ready, ready to hold out for bigger and better things.” That said, I am glad to have stumbled upon to your space and am happy to have this introduction to you. From what I’ve seen, there are indeed bigger and better things ahead.

  16. …hey…we all do what we gotta do. Bon voyage and thanks. I hope to find you on the shelves one day!

  17. Touched me once.
    Trains passing in the night.
    Different cities, different dreams,
    Same shared fears and equal hope,
    Two moonlit rails leading home.

  18. Carrot, I know what you are saying about the momentum. When I blog about something that I am excited about, I check too often to see if anyone stopped by, or how many people. I sensed it becoming waaaaaay too important.

    I hope you find a way to do it without having it be more than a place to share your writing and get feedback and appreciation for that.

    If you get a chance, check out a blog… I don’t have the exact web info… It’s called Cassandra Pages. She’s from Vermont, living in Canada, a writer.

    You can tell she isn’t living for the blog, but it’s a satisfying part of her life.

    Take care.

  19. Damn.

    It is a weird and wonderful thing to me that just because of this here internet I will every so often wonder about the life and thoughts of somebody who I have never met living in a van in Alaska. But I am glad that I have had the opportunity to read all that I have.

    Good luck!

  20. can’t wait to buy the book. loved the blog, every minute, even when it got thick. you’re one of keruoac’s mad ones. good luck and maybe one day we all will make something of these mad wandering ramblings of queer feminist writers who lived in vans in alaska and we will trace it all back to tara and what a crazy world this is. good luck. love and blessings and drunken brawls and writing because if we don’t we might go crazy, writing out of the past and into the sun. best, best, be happy. so incredibly happy.

  21. Carrot, thanks for all the inspiration. Take care up there in Alaska, the only place I’ve ever called home, and I’ll keep an eye out for you-as-a-processed-tree.

    Good luck!

  22. Carrrot, I’m so grateful for the time you spent and the blood and guts that you poured out to the anonymous…I do not have words to thank you enough for the inspiration you have given me. My invitation of welcoming is always extended to you…I will keep my eyes out for a particular hitchhiker in the future…and for your book!

  23. Thanks for the intensity and marvelous weirdness you shared–will be pleased to pick up the paper and glue versions when I see them.

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